Not complaining......just (venting)

Well, I would have to say Spring break ended quite abruptly and we are sure missing it now. If your up to date on my posts you may have read where I mentioned my boys "catching" more than just the nasty rubber ducks at the fair. Well I was right and whatever they caught we all now have. It has been a hard week to say the least. We have all been dealing with coughs, sore throats, sinus problems, cold and flu symptoms, and now some weird eye infection (I was going to take a picture of us all but believe me it is NOT pretty). I feel especially bad for the babies. Somehow, I guess moms are just able to forget how bad they feel when there is a family to take care of, but today was one of those days were I just didn't know how I was going to take care of two sick toddlers by myself. Matt had to jump right back into school and had a huge paper due this week so last night he pulled an "all nighter" which I am sure wasn't easy since he is sick. With him getting to the end of the semester and having so many important assignments due he can't really help me out as much as he would like. Today the babies have been so "clingy" just wanting to be held which is impossible with only one set of arms. I tried to be fair and take turns holding them but when I put one down to trade for the other I would get this look, like I was so mean and then the baby I put down would burst into tears. Little Nathan threw so many temper tantrums and I had never seen him so sad and upset in my life. It's hard to explain to a one year old why I'm holding his brother instead of him even though your both sick (they don't quite get it). I felt overwhelmed and had to say many prayers...(thank goodness for prayer). I know that I am sooo blessed to be a mother and wouldn't change my circumstance for anything. I have to believe that Heavenly Father knows what he's doing when he decides to send babies down two at a time to only one mother. I am thankful he chose me for this opportunity. My challenges don't even compare to what others may be facing at this time, but that is why I don't call it complaining, just.....venting. In high school I could vent to my best friends, in college my roommates, on my mission my "Liberty Jail family," in marriage my husband, but when your husband is not coherent because he's sick and going on two days of no sleep, then I get to vent to YOU....my blogging buddies. Thanks for letting me vent:)